7th of September 2022

First scan after starting chemo showed that my tumors are shrinking and they are shrinking a lot! 🥳

So this body has taken a beating, but has helped the chemo do its work and the news was better than expected!

So, I’m geared up and ready to handle any side effect thrown my way since now I have confirmed that my body is working with my mind and heart as planned and is fighting and not giving up! 🤗

Of course I will complain once the side effects hit me and you will read all about it, but I promise to continue being humorously sarcastic to entertain you all and for myself to save what little sanity (?) I have left🤪

Because, I will not lie… most days I wake up and do things I have planned and distract myself from the pet on my shoulders that constantly shrieks in my ear “you got stage 4 cancer giiiirl!” and I manage to ignore it… But other days my head is boiling with various ingredients such as panic and crippling dread: imagining all the worst case scenarios, which ironically don’t include me, because- well, I kill my character off and picture Martien and my children coping without me and then I entertain the thoughts of what I want done with my ashes 😐

But here I am, spirit renewed and ready to do another 4 rounds of chemo that will take me up to mid November and I can shout back at the pet on my shoulders “not for long you mother

flowering son of a biscuit” (in case children are reading, but you get what the duck I’m saying🙃).

And on the emotionally heavy days I won’t kill my character off, since I know that the reason I’m going to beat cancer is because I need to remain on this earth to do endless laundry and that is why I will request in my will, when I die well after my 90s, for my ashes to be thrown in the washing machine so they can clog it up and break it! 🤭

And if that thought, along with my shrinking tumors doesn’t make me feel fantastic, then I don’t know what else will! 😁

Second pic is a heart my eldest left on the kitchen window for me before he left for school to give me strength as today is another chemo day🥰

Lots of love and hug your people! ❤️